Becoming Me

I looked into the mirror as I stepped into the apartment. I see a really beautiful woman. The kind of woman that I always wanted to look like: my brows are done, got lovely makeup on, great hair 🙂 I am feeling so thankful for everything. I am beginning to feel better consistently with the...

Wisdom, compassion and kindness

I am in the middle of Step 4 in ACA. And wow... it's not been easy. Every now and then, the sadness that has been coming up feels too much to bear. I have been taking it really slow. Unlike other 12 Step programs, all the old timers lovingly advise me to take as long as I...

Processing

I find myself masterbating almost daily in the past week. I am observing this type of behavior. And seeing this makes me realize that I am actually going through a hard time. Break-up and death of a friend can be hard to take the same week, much less the same fucking day. A friend in...

I noticed, am realizing and learning that…

I noticed that ... ...I love to clean and tidy up only when I have enough rest. And that's how I gage if I need to sleep or not, by my willingness to tackle a pile of stuff. ...when people are not ready to hear a message, there is not a single way that it...

Adult Child dream and diary

Lately I have been sleeping in the same bed that my grandmother slept it before she passed. For the most part I like it, it's like being with her. I still have a pillow of hers that has her name from the nursing home. Last night I dreamed many things but the one that I...

Energy and Obession

Here I am trying to get my day started. I have some email correspondence and forms to complete for work, etc. I have been feeling sleepy and not sure how to get enough energy. At first I received the suggestion of cooking breakfast for myself. And I did, and it went fine. But right after...

Lessons of Attraction

So I am not ready to date and my Higher Power has been very clear about that too. I am feeling that I am getting closer of being ready, just not the moment. I find myself attracted to two men and instead of focusing on them as individuals I decided to learn from these experiences...

A prayer request granted !

For awhile since I moved to my sister's in the suburb, I have been praying to God about how to make healthy friends. For awhile I only have one friend out here and while I like Katie, I am triggered by her lifestyle. She is on her own path and sometimes it's confusing and triggering...

A Letter from My Inner Pilot Light by Lisa Rankin

Dearest You, Remember that your boundaries are yours to enforce. It is not the other person’s job to guess or try to read your mind as to your needs and desires. It is your place to feel in to when to say yes and when to say no. When to give leeway and when to...

Day 9

1) So thankful of how God provided me a WAY better lunch than I am even think of 🙂 This is a confirmation to the affirmation of : great things happen to me easily and frequently 🙂 the lunch was so good. I was craving beef and the buffet had two trays of beef with...